UNCOMFORTABLE

I want to have a heart-to-heart(blog). Today I joined a small group at my church. This is a big step for me as (at this church) I've never been in a small group before. Whether I say its because I was "busy" or already committed to other things, I never felt the push for it...until today. Originally, I really wanted to join a couple's group with Ryan because I feel most comfortable with him when experiencing new things, hence love and marriage? Anyway, he joined a men's group so I guess I figured I'd join a women's group (while trying to find something together, too). But what ended up happening is that we both joined our designated groups and didn't get a chance to find one together, unfortunately.

I've grown up in a Christian home my whole life, so I'm surprised by how nervous and uncomfortable I feel about the whole thing. One of my spiritual goals this year was to dig deeper and just connect with more faith-driven people. So I believe God is guiding me and I will learn and connect with Him in ways I could never imagine. I'm just extremely uncomfortable with doing things by myself. I always have been. It's weird (but not really weird), because I wouldn't say I'm an introvert at all. I wouldn't say I'm extremely outgoing either, but definitely not anti-social...in my mind anyway. I'm a total home body though, so I guess that makes sense. I just feel like I enjoy the company of others in doing things more than trying to do them on my own. So what perfect way to connect...in a small group...

So as I take this new step in my faith, I'm so dramatic lol, I ask that you pray for me in growing with God, and also, to not be so uncomfortable with meeting new people. That I settle in with an open heart and mind to receive God's grace. Lots and lots of grace.

Maybe I am anti-social...NAH, that's not it. 

Lord, if you lead me, I will...