Who I am in marriage

The thought occurred to me as I was babysitting tonight about all of the things I've realized about myself being married. I can assume that this happens to every wife/husband and not all are good. So without further ado, a list of good, bad, overwhelming, stupid, and obvious things I've learned about myself while enduring the God given life with another person: and more and more add everyday



1. I hate cleaning. I know I'm not alone in this and if anyone tells you they like it, well just punch them in the face because they are lying. To everyone's surprise, there are things I do enjoy like vacuuming and lysoling down the place, but I'd rather poke myself in the eyes 1000 times that do the dishes, ESP when Ryan cooks. He loves grease and oil. Sorry boo but it sucks. This goes at odds with the fact that...

2. I hate dirt. Now I can admit that I am a "messy person" according to my husband, whatever that means but I like to call it organized clutter and argue that even though it may be messy, it's technically clean. 

3. I love organizing. I see where you are going because these 3 things already pretty much make me sound hypocritical, but I can assure you they are ALL different and I tend to them in very different manors.

4. I love excuses. Especially if I come up with them and I do that a lot. I'm working on it babe.

5. I hate being alone.

6. I have become a DIY addict.

7. I'm starting to resent ESPN.

8. I realize that I have the best husband. I know sounds like every wife, but it's true and he really is. I've never been on my own before so this whole move in away from home thing was a TOTAL shock for me. I have to say that Ry has eased me into it and does more than I can thank him for. At least I have the rest of our lives to try.

9. I cannot understand a family that does not own a dog. Unless you are allergic, you have no excuse. If you're a cat lover, I also cannot understand you. #teamdoglover

10. I love to cook. Doesn't mean I'm good or bad, or even do it all the time, I just enjoy it.

11. I don't take pictures as often as I should.

12. I'm becoming OBSESSED with designing and redesigned our soon-to-be-house.

13. I'm a "flip-flopper," Ryan says. I like to think of it as creative thinking. How can one just stick to one idea and never change it?

14. God has blessed me immensely in these past months, I can't even begin to grasp his concept of love but it's inevitable. 

15. I have slight OCD.

16. I either have too many clothes or not a big enough closet. I like to think the latter. Irrelevant.

17. Ryan likes video games, I like blogging, being lazy, cuddling with our dogs, and eating. Lots and lots of eating.

18. I am TERRIBLE at communication. Also, something I'm working on.

19. I'm an extreme introvert. Hence #18.

20. I fall in love with my husband more than twice a day (most days & he'd disagree) and realize other than Jesus saving me, he is the BIGGEST blessing of all time. He's god-sent. 

Hate it or love it. I'm still working on trying to be the best wife I can be and serve the Lord and my man all at the same time. But sometimes it's so hard when I have hot Cheetos in one hand, Cola in the other, and American Horror Story is on. So freaking hard.